Perhaps the best place to start is not with my words, but rather those oft poorly quoted words from the Temple of Delphi, which read in full:
Before you go any further, remember the scene in the Matrix when Morpheous offers Neo the choice between the Blue Pill and the Red Pill, ask yourself the question if you knew the outcome would you still take the Red Pill ?
It has been more than 15 years since I swallowed the metaphorical Red Pill, I did not realize the gravity of what it meant at the time, nor do I remember consciously taking it, but I do remember sitting on my back patio looking up at the heavens asking from some deep inner place to be shown how I may best serve. I no longer remember what prompted such a prophetic question, only that it set in motion an incredible series of events that continues to this day … I cannot say that all of the events where enjoyable, in fact many of them were downright uncomfortable, what I can say though is that each step on the journey led me to this place within myself that I could not have imagined before that day ….
What is that place ?
In many respects the “place” is simple, and yet profound. It is a place within myself of deep acceptance, of viewing the world through a much wider lens and a place that even when the surface waters seem choppy and stormy there remains a deep abiding knowing that “This to Shall Pass”. I don’t know that I can ever truly express this place in words, as no matter how many I use they never seem to quite capture the essence of my experience … what I can say though, is that after suffering from depression and a serious panic attack condition for more than 3 years .. to find this place of “doubtlessness” that dwells within all of us, is my idea of heaven on earth.
So where does the bloke part come in?
Apart from the obvious appendage differences, it is more about attitude. I was never one to stay living in Ashrams or Monasteries even thought the thought has a great deal of appeal, besides I love the toys, the cars, the bikes and the technology, and I delight at the idea of seeing how we as a humanity could integrate it all into a sustainable and co-operative system that is life affirming, rather than the current model of systematized insanity that pervades our little planet.
On an inner trajectory my personal process was to see how I could walk this in the world, open hearted and undefended. To be aware in as many moments as possible that this grand dance that is life on planet earth, is just the divine intelligence expressing itself. To remember that even as an individual, this form is a part of the collective consciousness that is all of humanity, and to remember in as many moments as possible that I am the divine made flesh as is every person and thing I see.
And on the deepest level I hungered to experience the truth and potential of who I am, not from an ego place but rather from a surrendered place, from a place where I am moved by the in and out breath of the soul, this place of doubtlessness, this place that hopefully does its part to contribute to the awakening of the collective …. and I confess, some days it is easier than others, some days I do better than others, and some days my plan & the divine plan don’t seem to quite match up, other days I am so in the flow that it is almost scary… almost … either way once you take the Red Pill no matter how it looks in your universe, there is no going back .. because deep inside, you already know the truth .. the only real question is do you want that more than anything else ?
Welcome to the Real World!